The Unexpected Door

“For the umpteenth day in a row I woke up and thought about the truth and what I needed to do about it.

I didn’t have a job and I needed to find one.

Interviews with nothing so much as a ‘yes’ or even a ‘no’.

Sifting through hundreds of job postings for jobs that I didn’t want.

It all felt truly hopeless after months of no success.

Finally, I applied for a job that I really didn’t want. I got the job, ended a months-long drought on income, and stepped into another great unknown.

A ‘what am I doing with my life?’ phase.

That went on for years.

On the outside, it looked like I was doing plenty. But it didn’t feel right. A change needed to happen, but what?

I finally let go of figuring it out. Mainly because I was tired.

Years later I look back and see that the letting go let something else transform.

As I sit in a new career direction that feels quintessentially me, I realize that the job I didn’t want was a pivotal moment in turning me to the direction that landed me right here.

It taught me a lot about what it means to let go when I feel something isn’t working to my satisfaction and gives me hope for other ‘what next?’ experiences that may come.”

Shared with permission. Names and identifying details may be changed.

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Even in the mud, something is beginning.